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To Wake a Captive Dreamer: Art, Notes & Soundtrack
TEXT - Make cupcakes not war

Master Post

The rest of the wonderful art by causette



Main Art Post


Okay, this is where I babble. Prepare yourselves! This fic has been living in my head for more than seven months. I have never worked as hard on a piece of fiction as I have on this. It's like my fic baby! I'm positively giddy at finally getting to share it with everybody. Retold fairy tales are my favorite, but as you might gather from this story, I don't really think about fairy tales the way most people do. Give me a fairy tale to play with and I'll almost always come up with something dark and angsty. So, I hope y'all enjoyed my kinda skewed take on the Prince Charming and Happily Ever After thing. *g*

A brief note on the band name. Turns out there’s a rather famous bakery in Corsicana, Texas, about fifty miles south of Dallas. It’s called the Collin Street Bakery
and it specializes in . . . fruitcakes! I really couldn’t pass up a pun that awesome.


And now the Thank Yous!

Thanks first to causette for her wonderful art. She made such lovely pieces for me! I’m so happy you chose my story. They are all gorgeous and everyone should definitely go give her feedback at her art post.

Thank you so much to my lovely beta, hunterwithcause. I really could not have asked for a better one. You challenged me to look critically at all aspects of my story to truly turn out the best possible product. I’m so glad you answered my plea for assistance. It wouldn’t be the same story without you.

Thanks also to my alpha readers, shadowc44, roseganymede, dancinbutterfly and monica_catch22. They saw the roughest first version of what eventually became this story. I’m a complete feedback whore, so I would have been lost without their willingness to have a read.

A great big round of applause and thank you to the spn_j2_bigbang mods for their hard work running this challenge. I can only imagine what a logistical nightmare it must have been getting everything in order and they did an awesome job!

My last thank you is by far the biggest. Believe me when I tell you that this story would never have gotten finished if it weren’t for my amazing BFF celtic_cookie. If this is my fic baby, she's the godmother. Thanks for the cattle prodding and the hand holding. Thank you for not just hanging up on me the umpteenth time I called you going “Okay, I changed this line. Tell me what you think! Does moving this comma convey the correct sense of urgency?” Thank you for the multiple bits of dialogue and description that have made it into the fic virtually unchanged. Thank you for spending a ridiculous amount of time scouring the internet for the exact original address of the Collin Street Bakery. And thanks for finding the Collin Street Bakery in the first place. And, of course, for your ridiculously accurate imitation of Chris Kane introducing the band. I’m sure there’s something I’m forgetting to thank you for, because you’ve done so much. Baby, the internet cannot contain your awesome, okay? ♥ x a billionty!


Come Out of the Shade

A Soundtrack for To Wake a Captive Dreamer


Cover art by sophie_448

1. Devastation Hands - Emerson Hart

You drink your blessings
And you take your pills
You look for something better
But you've lost your will to save yourself
So the hurt keeps coming

2. Above and Below - The Bravery

Sometimes I feel
Like I wanna leave this place for good
Under the ground
I'll live down there without a sound
And never hear
These hissing voices all the same
I'll disappear
Causing living makes me feel ashamed

3. New Soul - Yael Naim

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit ‘bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

4. One Thing - Steve Carlson

At the end of the day
Or even when the day is new
There's always one thing
I can count on with you
Even if our plans don't turn out
The way we thought they would
You make doin' nothing feel so good

5. Sex and Candy - Marcy Playground

I smell sex and candy here
Who's that lounging in my chair
Who's that casting devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely is a dream

6. Feeling Lucky - Jimmy Eat World

I can only take a guess what the morning brings
If it feels too good, then it probably is
Yeah, suck that lucky feeling right outta me

7. Vanishing - Barenaked Ladies

He's a magician
Hoping, wishing
And you're the one vanishing

All the words of love he longs for you to hear
He whispers them each night into a lion's ear

8. Just Can't Fall in Love - Bill Ricchini

I saw a cloud up in the blue
But this is something I can't deny
And now I'm thinking I just might try
Won't make a difference
'Cause I just can't fall in love

9. Wish I Could Forget - The Weepies

Standing in the sun smoking quiet cigarettes
Just before I let you down
Funny how a heart shatters all at once
Seems like it should make a sound

Monday come like Tuesday
You were something else, I will admit
I remember what you told me
I only wish I could forget

10. Dead Man (Carry Me) - Jars of Clay

So carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I want to be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

11. More Than I Deserve - Kane

I've taken more than I've been given
I've taken for granted this life I'm living
I don't know why heaven above
Blessed me with your sweet love
I know I never tell you what you're worth
It's more than I deserve

12. Come Out of the Shade - The Perishers

*I have considered this the theme song for To Wake a Captive Dreamer almost since I started writing it.
If you download only one track, let it be this one. *g*

Take a step and come out of the shade
I can tell you're no longer afraid
I'm helpless without your warming smile
Take a step and come out in the sun
I can tell it's already begun
I'm helpless without your warming smile

13. Some Surprise - Greg Lightbody & Lisa Hannigan

Your lips come as some surprise
That they would want to come and meet mine
They never taste like the last time
Your lips come as some surprise

14. Good Man - Josh Ritter

I fell in love with the sound
Oh I love to sing along with you
We got tunes we kicked around some
We got a bucket that the tunes go through

Babe we both had dry spells, hard times and bad lands
I’m a good man for ya
I’m a good man

15. Blow It Out - The Features

Let it down
Watch it go round and round
Here I've found that I'm alright

If you're happy and you know it
Turn the volume up and blow it out


[ETA 3/8/18: Hey, so, all those download links are dead on account of how megaupload went to the big file sharing service in the sky however many years ago. Sadly, I no longer have all the songs I included on this fanmix. However! I have made a youtube playlist in the event that anyone is still interested and would like to listen.]

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WHEEE! IT'S UP! Now everyboudy else can see how AWESOME IT IS. *snuggles you* YAY. You know, I think I'll read it again!

BB! I'm so excited! *bounces*

It's up! \o/

You're most welcome and trust me, beta reading the story was fun. And I know now that the boiler in our building doesn't heat water at 2 AM anymore. So it's been a pleasure and educational as well :P

This was utterly amazing. I laughed, I cried, I adored it. I giggled so hard at Chris's "Do you wanna get a puppy?" Dude, they already have one, his name's Jared :-)
God, poor broken prince Jensen, and prince Charming Jared, and I always see Chris as the the Knight of Swords so, yeah that works and Steve, so steadfast and true. And you brought Sandy to Jared and yeah, wow, babbling here. LOVED IT SO MUCH!!!

I love this collection of music! Good choices!

I'm done reading it (for the first time ...)

It's past midnight and I actually should be asleep because I have to get up and go to work in the morning but I honestly don't care (and don't you dare scolding me!).

I know I already sent you the message and said how much I love you but I have to do it again now that I finished.

I love that story to pieces. It has my second favorite things: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Jared and Jensen, music, porn, great dialogues, fairytales and a lot of love from you for the main characters. (My favorite things would have been Latin, priests and rosaries but I'm so glad there were none of these in here because I absolutely wouldn't be able to cope^^)

There were so many lines, phrases, dialogues, moments and scenes that I loved, laughed at, awwwed at or just couldn't help but stupidly grin at. I've had the soundtrack on repeat the whole time (and I love the song collection!). I'm so excited about this story, the whole idea, your writing skills, the art, just EVERYTHING ... I think I want to marry your story and have it's babies. Would that be okay with you? (I should probably ask Kate, too ...)

I already asked if I could PLEASE read this. I know I got the accent (although I'm in denial aboutt that^^) but just let me do it and then you can still say you don't want me to make it public, okay?

So ... yeah, I'm pretty excited and hyper right now and I really cannot imagine how I'm supposed to sleep now but ANYWAY ...

I love you. A lot! You're amazing. This story is amazing. You can be proud of yourself and everyone involved and just in case there is someone who doesn't like it and is brave enough to say so? Tell me who it is and I'm gonna punch that person verbally ... I'm good at that! ;o)

I hope you're having a great day and lots and lots of fabulous feedback!

*hugs and kisses* ♥


I've quickly run through this fic to find the soundtrack so I can listen to it whilst reading the fic. So far, they both looks awesome :D


There isn't enough love in this world to shower you with for this fic!! I'd quote bits I love and paraphrase sectiont hat I adore, but then you'd end up with virtually all of your fic back in a comment *g* All I can say is thank-you for wiriting and sharing this fic with us :D


This is such a nice retelling of the fairytale. I love Jared's persistence and the way Jensen's panic comes from realizing he's in love instead of something bad. I really like Allie's insistence that Jensen was worthy of being friends with. Steve and Chris were awesome both together and when "handling" Jensen and Jared.

OMG I loved your story so much. Eveything I like the most was in it ! Damaged!Jensen, Protective Chris, loving Steve and Jared his usual self. I'm glad I found it tonight. And I so love your arts !!!!!!!!! Is it possible to borrow the very first one on top to use it as my header for my LJ ? I'm searching for a header mixing Chris steve and Jensen for so long but couldn't find one... If it's not ok, don't worry, I'll keep on searching or maybe ask one day to someone to make me one ;o))
You really did a great job with this story.

I just listened to the podfic version - finished it today! \0/ FANTASTIC!!!!!!

This was SO GOOOOOOD! I really enjoyed the prologue and the epilogue.

I know you already have an album cover, but I wanted to do my own with even more of the fairytale references, and I thought you might like:

This is gorgeous! Thank you so much! It's exactly what I pictured, but didn't have the skills to achieve. :-DDD

I'm glad you like. The font really makes it, I think. Very fairy-tale.

Although I think I might trim a little of those vines so we can see Jensen's face more.

I would really love to read the story while listening to the soundtrack but the link is broken... Is it possible to upload it again?

I, too, would love to check out the soundtrack. Is there any chance you'd consider re-uploading it?

Your fic is lovely, I really enjoyed it :)

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